Well this blog has been on hold for quite some times say (2 year now) and fondling between what to right, when to start or waiting for that inspiration and all, I finally start it watching a movie from middle ( I don’t even know the name of the movie or the actors except for the hero who was in ‘ i know what you did last summer’) it seems like normal movie with rich girl and poor girl trying to be the most popular one in school and the school’s hot dude falling for the poor girl and stuff, yet I still watching it ( name of the movie appeared but I was busying typing and missed it J ).

Getting back to what I wanted to right, well a very dear friend asked me if i would like to do photography (which I love and have a flickr account too) but i had no answer, I should have said yes as I love taking pics, but then I had be stupid, gave excuse that I am not into technicality of the photo taking process (with the camera, focus, aperture, focal length) but look more for composition and what’s playing in my mind and achieve it with or without Photoshop (she’s all that, that’s the name of the movie).

This all got me thinking as I was buying onion, at age 24, am I trying or working towards what I want to do or just again going along with the flow and this led to soul searching and that no answerable question “ what I want to do in life and what are my dreams?”. Hooooooooo, god haven’t i don that like every second of my life (there are complicated issues also other than career wise ;) ).

So here I go making the dream list: I wanted to be a cook/chef because I like cooking and the whole process of making food, but I never do it on regular bases only take it up when mom not home or If I am in mood ( for cooking). Home maker (guess too much of oprah and day time television). Interior designer for the creative satisfaction and I get to stay home (well I dream of working only on my home). Fashion designer, oh I love cloths and all that goes into making it. Classical dancer, Singer well I used to sing well as a kid but then puberty came and took my voice away. Actor I suck at acting, really (long story). Guitarist, it just everybody wants to be one when they see a rock start (I don’t like rock that much) or it just feels so cool. An animal doctor (can’t get the spelling of you know what I mean) because I love animals, well I have my views on that. A national geographic photographer for that matter a photographer, because I just love to click and experiment. A TV show host. One of those travelers that come on TV . Well these are some of what I could dream of right now.

What I am right now is a designer (I wear many hats) and will not stop dreaming about what I want to do because I know I will keep adding to my dream list and keep doing what I love and that’s a dream I want to keep dreaming and live in.

By the way the movie ended in the usual climax, rich boy wins heart of poor girl and they live happily ever after, and the rich girl is someone everyone hates now.